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Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Is It Worth It? Let Me Work It. Volume I

Hello friends
I've started taking birth control pills
and they are of the devil.
They make me extremely irritable.
(Which I hope lasts only a bit until I get used to it)
But I've heard there is a silver lining:
Acne disappears!
I'm here to burst that bubble.
For me, it seems to be the opposite.. AWESOME
So, I searched the interwebs for possible solutions.
Lo and behold,
I believe it is time to test out
We've all heard the hype, but I'm gonta put it to the test in my first edition of a new series that probably only my grandma and I will read:
Is It Worth It? Let Me Work It.
(title inspired by my girl Missy, hello)
In which I will test hyped products, etc.
Because I have no life and my skin needs help.
So here we go, friends.
I'll be back in two weeks with the results.
K see ya.

Monday, July 28, 2014

Remember, Remember. Forget.

I missed writing my brother an email for the first time since he's been gone.
And it made me sick.
I spent this weekend in Clovis helping my cousin with her bridal shower.. to get there, I had to drive from Provo to Vegas and catch a flight to Clovis from there.
To return, the opposite.
To be honest, it was draining. That's just the way traveling is.
On top of that, the days leading up to my departure were work-filled and busy themselves.
But my entire drive back yesterday was filled with songs Morgan and I used to yell together in the car..
We Tigers, We Tigers, WHOOP! WHOOP, WHOOP!
and I sat yelling them by myself, smiling and remembering what it was like when he was by my side.
Daydreaming about why I want those songs played at my reception even though he and I are probably the only ones that would enjoy them.
At each pit stop, I thought to email him early. But I didn't.
I got home at about 8:30 and saw Dallon and other friends. We watched a movie, and I fell asleep, like always.
When I woke up to go home around midnight, emailing did not cross my mind once.
I woke up around 5 and it hit me. The physical sickness did as well.
I was SO excited to talk to him! To let him know how remembered he was! How I think of him daily and he's not alone out there in Beira!
But I missed it. I forgot.
Luckily, my mom had emailed him and gotten good news that he's the happiest he's been. But my heart still hurt for a bit.
You see, forgetfulness has been one of my biggest downfalls lately. I've hurt myself and others through it, and it's something I've tried to work on, but my weakness seems to have magnified the past few weeks.
I can be angry about it
or I can realize it's all for my good. Everything is for our good.
I'm reading a book called "Emotional Black Holes" (quite the title, eh?).
It talks about how our failed trials aren't losses because it shows us our weaknesses very clearly. And from there, we're able to work on them and improve them. Make weak things become strong. Through the Atonement, through Christ.
Forgetfulness might not be something that weighs you down,
but for me, I've found it to be quite the nuisance. But really, it's something I'm supposed to be working on. Remembrance is a skill I believe Heavenly Father wants me to hone because He knows it will be beneficial to me and my family one day.
And once I recognize that, I can take these trials as learning experiences to help me become better instead of bitter. Help me to turn to Him, because I KNOW I cannot do it on my own.
The book also talks about how we find that Heavenly Father doesn't really give us trials to hone our strengths.. we're already strong in some areas. Yes, we'll be able to help others with those strengths from time to time, but what kind of people would we be if we were super strong in a few areas and extremely weak in others?
We're supposed to try to become like Him
and He is strong in all things.
He helps in all things.
I just need to remember that.
Remember Him, in all things.
How He helps, in all things.
And my weaknesses will turn into opportunities to grow more like my Father in Heaven instead of hindrances that hold me back.
“Wherefore, I beseech of you, brethren, that ye should search diligently in the light of Christ that ye may know good from evil; and if ye will lay hold upon every good thing, and condemn it not, ye certainly will be a child of Christ.” 
Weaknesses are not just weaknesses. They are opportunities. And opportunities are good.
I won't condemn a good thing. I'll grow more like Christ and my Father in Heaven from it.
Things I plan to do (so I can hold myself accountable, and more importantly, not forget):
1. Write in my journal each night. Even a few lines. No matter how tired I am.
2. Write notes in my journal as I go through the day. Promises I made. Meetings I planned. Checklists are good, right?
3. I'll Remember God first (so I guess this should be number one, huh? I'm working on it).
K see ya.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Garden Goodness.


 Dress: H&M // Sandals: A past life probably because they're so old
We've got a little garden in the back yard of the house I'm renting, Not really sure how that happened because when I moved in it didn't look like this.. and I don't know how it got there..
which means perhaps I should go out back more often.
10 minutes after I took these pictures, my friends and I hiked the Y.
I've been here since August 2011.
My decision to do so at 2:30 PM in 100 degree heat could have been a little more thought out,
but it was fun, nonetheless.
Painful and hot, but it felt good seeing the Y ten feet away, then standing on the painted concrete.
All this time here, and I finally made things happen.
It made me think about how that translates on a broader scale -
all this time growing up, all of these experiences, and throughout it all marriage seemed like a dream..
I knew it would happen one day, but it never seemed real.
But it's happening, and it's real..
and I've made a decision regarding the process.
I'm not going to let the idea that the engagement period has to suck, happen.
I'm engaged! I get to marry DALLON! This is awesome, not stressful!
K see ya.

Friday, July 18, 2014


I'm finally connected with Bloglovin'
so that's pretty cool.
Follow if you please, friends.
Ze button is on the right.
K see ya.

Thursday, July 17, 2014

What ELSA-m I To Do?

I was asked by Chloe of EscapePhotography to join her Disney Princess themed shoot.
No thanks, I don't want to get my hair and makeup done and dress up like Elsa from Frozen. That sounds horrible.
See if you can guess which princesses we were dressed up as. Winner gets a dog.
(How I wish that were true. Dogs are the number one missed thing while living in college housing. Number two is being naked whenever I want, but we won't talk about that here. Whoops.)
Thanks to Chloe for remembering my ice queen soul and asking me to be in the shoot.
*throwing ice in your general direction or whatever Elsa does*
K see ya.